Hello,

As most of you know I am very busy at my church and I am working very hard at changing most of the churches way of doing things into a more 21st century style. We started back in October of 2006 streaming the services for the Young Adults & Youth by December we decided only to do the Young Adults.

Then in November I introduced a Pentium II computer with ITunes and over 1700 mp3 files to be used by anyone who uses the old sanctuary from Sunday School to Young Adults to Adults their is music for everyone. Now in March it has taken off like you would not believe and now other members of the Youth and Young Adults are wanting us to add their cds to our collection.

In February we finally moved the sound board (mixer) up into the sound booth and now we have everything at our disposal rather then having to run back and fourth from the main level and the sound booth I call “The Upper Room” this was so exciting for me and the Technical Crew of Embassy Student Ministries to get things back in order.

Now here we are in March and we are working on getting a new computer system for the old sanctuary for projection of the worship songs on the screen. This excites me.

But at the same time something is bothering me, I have had a stirring in my soul. I am not totally sure what it is that is bothering me. I know that I am not totally crazy with combining the Mp3s with “Projection” computer but there is something more. I just cannot put my foot down on it.. Just something to take to prayer tonight.

My Pastor has had me on a two week break starting last Monday he and I both felt that I just need to take some time and get my life back on track with God and realize that it is not about what I do but about my life as a whole.

You see we have to remember that when we become all about our ministry work, and not about living the kingdom life we start to loose site of the goal which is saving the lost souls for Eternal Life in the Kingdom of Heaven.

I have never lost site of that fact but my earthly body has been run down, lets see in the last month I get the Flu, I get a bladder infection and did that stop me, NO! then after the February All Night Prayer I end up with a cold and did that stop me know.. I had one goal and that was getting to church and making sure my “Digital Media” ministry was running and that I was there as I said I would.

I did end up being honest with my Pastor and told him that I almost did not come in. I was going to call him an hour before my pickup at 5:00 and just not come in because I was run down and still fighting a cold. So that is when he said to me to take two weeks and work on just growing closer in the things of the God and the kingdom of heaven.

There is still something that is bothering me, and I cannot put my finger on it. As I stated before I just have to take it to prayer. Keep working on my revelation study (from Jimmy Swaggart) and just try and understand more of the kingdom.

You see over the last month the Lord has been breaking me down and working on me in the areas of Rest, Wisdom and the biggest one of all relying on others to help further the “Digital Media” ministry.. Yes at times the leader will have to make bigger sacrifices then “his 12″ but I am willing to do that.

Just this past week I finished up the March schedule and allowed myself to take some more days off and just sit in the service and hear was God wants to say for us and the lives of others. This is a hard part of all of this. I just have this need to do everything myself, even though I have a group of hard working men to rely on. God has brought me the beginning of my 12 and I did not see it until the February “Worship Summit” that I had this blessing.

You see everything is there for this part of the Embassy Student Ministries to run successfully I would just allow myself to use the blessings that God has given me. In The end if we do not see the little things that God has given us, how can we be expected to be given the big things.

Also over the past week I struggled with what to do with some of my websites and blogs and I over the week I thought about it, looked over them and just decided to start to merge everything into one site rather then split were splits do not need to happen. So the first thing to do was to let go of my past.. well my religious & rebellious past and so after a backup I deleted all of the entries in my journal “The Wisdom of Mattitude”

Now you might ask, Why would you delete all of your entries from the last 7 years? Well the answer, it goes like this.

I did take the time to look over the titles of entries and read entries I thought might be able to be moved to my “Fibro” journal and thought about moving only my health entries over and then decided to let this part of my life go. Spiritually I did let it go but I still could not delete this journal.

Well today after some deep thought and re-designing of my personal site I decided to integrate this journal as a sub-section rather then a sub-site of my domain. I have decided to leave the personal portion of my site like this

• MJSD.CA Root
• Spina Bifida Sub-Site
• Family Sub-Site Inc. My Personal Site & This Journal

I did leave notice at the old address that this site has moved and the url were to find it.

The only site that I have a problem with removing is my old Wrestling Title Histories called “The Vault” this was a joint design with an online friend of mine from Kingston but if I am to get my past go I will some day have to remove my site and my nickname “Mattitude” most people I tell from the church about it associate it with The Attitude of Matt and I don’t want that part of my life to ever surface like that again.

But now it is off to do my prayers and my revelation study and find out weather something is bothering me or God trying to tell me something

Blessings
Matthew