Category Archives: Prayer

Seek First The Kingdom

2 Chronicles 7:14-15, 19-20

14If My people, who are called by My name, shall humble themselves, pray, seek, crave, and require of necessity My face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven, forgive their sin, and heal their land

15Now My eyes will be open and My ears attentive to prayer offered in this place.

19But if you [people] turn away and forsake My statutes and My commandments which I have set before you and go and serve other gods and worship them,

20Then will I pluck [Israel] up by the roots out of My land which I have given [them]; and this house which I have hallowed for My Name will I cast out of My sight, and will make it to be a proverb and a byword among all nations.

This is a pivotal scripture for tonight I have been in what feels as a new season in my life. I feel as if I am in transition maybe still from March and maybe it is a new season that I am coming from. There are things that I am learning about myself that I don’t really like. One of them is that I am back slidden and another is that I am very hard on myself and don’t feel worthy of the position and blessings that I am getting.

My head these days has been full of voices telling me that I am no good, I am not worthy, I should just give up and let things fall where they may. I hear words of wisdom from Pastor Derek like what are you willing to give up to have more of God? What are you willing to give up to receive for from him? Then I hear voices of my mentor saying to me.. the things you have told me are the same things that we have been dealing with.. You know what to do DO IT!

I just today asked for wisdom and council from two very important people in my life and they told me the same thing that even my mentor has said which is Seek God and ask the Lord what you are suppose to do about the situations in your life. Thing brings to mind

Matthew 6:33 (Amplified Bible)
33But seek (aim at and strive after) first of all His kingdom and His righteousness (His way of doing and being right), and then all these things taken together will be given you besides.

Matthew 6:33 (New American Standard Bible)
33“But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

I know that I have been lacking in this area and I know that I have not been doing the things I should be doing in my life right now. The simple stuff and the stuff that is so easy. I have been so focused on what has had to be done in the natural that I have lost focus on what is most important.

Pastor Derek did an illustration once in a sermon and it showed us how if God is #1 in all things he can bless all that we do and keep them all safe but if we start to put something above God like my relationship then God can only bless the things that I am submitting to him. I should be able to do this as I have been saved since I was 6 and re-dedicated when I was 18 so this should be a no brainier. But it is not I don’t know why but it is not.

I have to remember to get into the face of God The Book of Proverbs reminds us that it is wise to seek council of the people that we trust or God has placed over us. But we must be in the face of God on a daily basis and not be so worried about what others think and what others say. When we allow God to bless all that we have and make him #1 then he can begin to pour out blessings on us as he sees fit.

This brings to mind a scripture from Mark 11 and it says

Mark 11:24 (Amplified Bible)
24For this reason I am telling you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe (trust and be confident) that it is granted to you, and you will [get it].

I have learned in my life time that we must always believe that what we ask for will be given unto us but that we have already received it. There are many things going through my head right now that I must turn over to God on a daily basis and we must be ready to do what is asked of us of the Lord no matter what the Cost. But this is hard, I know for I love my technology and I love my media library and I wish to have those things for a long time. But I tell myself I will do what ever God asks of me.. but what would happen if he asked me to give all of this up and what if he said no more I am going to take it away what would I do then.

Am I willing to give up all that I love to serve in the kingdom of heaven? Am I willing to follow God at all costs? At this point in my journey I don’t know. I will have to seek the face of God daily for each day new manna will be given to us. I know that we must take one day a week and rest because God took the 7th day and rested but  We must always be in the face of God and we must always be seeking his will for our lives.

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